And that's assuming they'd let us leave even if there was a way back.
[ Something which goes without saying, most likely, but the words slip out in an overly tired tone before Claude remembers to keep them back. They're at the whims of those in power here just as Ciri's said. Even patience for the right opportunity when it's served him so well before won't be of any assistance here without some major changes to make it an actual advantage.
Absently he runs a hand against his jaw while thinking. There's that small tug of not quite guilt, not quite responsibility as the idea of not returning home even if there was someday an opportunity for it sits with him for longer. While other times it might be fainter, today it's rather strong when this conversations winds threads of it into his words as he shifts his gaze to watch Ciri ready the tea. Perhaps it's this which makes Abraxas seem distant even as they're here in it and part of what brought him here. ]
If I go home, I'm signing myself up for more threats than ever before. The court I grew up in was a particularly unfriendly one - to me, specifically, and I doubt that's changed in the years I spent away. Going back will mean starting over in more ways than one even if it's my home, but it's still something I wish to see through more than anything.
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[ Something which goes without saying, most likely, but the words slip out in an overly tired tone before Claude remembers to keep them back. They're at the whims of those in power here just as Ciri's said. Even patience for the right opportunity when it's served him so well before won't be of any assistance here without some major changes to make it an actual advantage.
Absently he runs a hand against his jaw while thinking. There's that small tug of not quite guilt, not quite responsibility as the idea of not returning home even if there was someday an opportunity for it sits with him for longer. While other times it might be fainter, today it's rather strong when this conversations winds threads of it into his words as he shifts his gaze to watch Ciri ready the tea. Perhaps it's this which makes Abraxas seem distant even as they're here in it and part of what brought him here. ]
If I go home, I'm signing myself up for more threats than ever before. The court I grew up in was a particularly unfriendly one - to me, specifically, and I doubt that's changed in the years I spent away. Going back will mean starting over in more ways than one even if it's my home, but it's still something I wish to see through more than anything.